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I could not count how many times I have read about ego, intuition and how many times we discussed this even at school, with friends, reading about in on all sorts of books. And ego and intuition inner battle comes to us daily. It is that constant fight in between what your head says and what you actually feel is right and what your path is.
When I was setting up my youtube channel I knew it was going to be in English. I lived here for almost 14 years and although I am a proud Czech and I know I have a good size community in Czech that like reading my posts and follow my content, I knew youtube should be in English. I got to a point that few people suggested I should try to film in Czech and yay the views went up however my intuition was telling me it is not the right direction. I was not feeling the same when creating Czech content and firmly believe it was confusing a lot of people. Whilst ego was happy with views going up, my heart was on a different frequency. When I create I want to create things with joy, smile and love it. Only then the things can bring joy and love to other people. I was living in constant doubt, I kept coming across signs that this is not the way to go. And that is why I stopped.
I have never given any explanation and I just mentioned it to the closest friends and most said go where your heart takes you as that is the most important thing. So I said bye to my Ego on this occasion, no matter what it costs me.
Nedokazu ani spocitac kolikrat jsem cetla o egu, intuici a kolikrat jsem to rozebirala s prateli, cetla o tom v dalsi knize, ci procitala, co o egu tvrdili nasi nejvetsi myslitele jeste ve skole. Volit mezi egem a intuici je nasi kazdodenni soucasti. Je to takove to neustale rozhodovani, zda se ridit hlavou nebo tim, co nam naseptava neco hluboko uvnitr.
Kdyz jsem zakladala svuj youtube kanal, tak jsem vedela, ze chci vse vest v Anglickem jazyce. Muj blog tak byl vedeny temer od zacatku, ziju v Britanii opravdu radku let, ale vedela jsem, ze mam i Ceskou komunitu, ktera cte me prispevky a sleduje me na ruznych platformach. Ale tajne jsem doufala, ze ta moje komunita si me nasla prave protoze umi Anglicky a pevne verim, ze ti spravni, kteri si vas maji najit, si vas vzdycky najdou. No a pred nedavnem jsem se na popud par lidi rozhodla zkusit nekolik vlogu v Ceskem jazyce. A svete div se, zvedla se sledovanost, ale moje intuince mi naseptavala, ze to neni moje cesta. Navic jsem neustalne narazela na znameni, ktera me v tom utvrzovala a tak jsem postupne od Ceskych vlogu ustoupila. A v teto situaci citim, ze je to tak spravne. Jsem spokojenejsi a citim, ze toto je moje cesta i prestoze ty v AJ maji mene shlednuti. Chci delat to co delam s usmevem, chci citit radost pri kazde tvorbe, kazde fotografii, videu, postu. Kdyz citim radost ja, predavam ji dal a to je to nejdulezitejsi. A tak jsem tentokrat zamavalu egu na rozloucenou, i prestoze me to neco stoji, ale jsem tak spokojenejsi.
Myslim, ze ti kteri si me Ceske vlogy oblibili si zaslouzi vysvetleni a jak rikam, ti co si me maji najit si me najdou tak i tak. Ja chci jit svoji cestou a ridit se srdcem.
Eva
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